It’s been a big week. I have a lot to say. I’ll start with the thing weighing heaviest on my heart-
1) Hurricane Sandy has devastated our country. And if you’re sitting in Southern California or Montana or wherever and you are disconnected from this, get your head out of your ass. People are suffering and they deserve our help and respect. I’m appalled that the marathon was even a consideration after the total devastation that has happened. People I know are still without power. My friends grandmother is boiling water on the stove for warmth. Go ahead and run a fucking marathon while people are floating around dead in flood water. I’m glad it was cancelled, although I feel like it was a slap in the face to those suffering to even consider carrying on with it.
My prayers and positive thoughts go out to all of those affected by the storm. It’s just unbelievable, the devastation.
2) I’m very happy to be having a girl. I’m beyond thrilled to dress her up cute and I hope to have a good relationship with her. I’m nervous about that part because I don’t have a good relationship with my own mother. I’m hopeful for the future and March isn’t that far away!
3) I got married by a judge that looked like Elvis in a courtroom full of people dressed in Halloween costumes to the man of my dreams. It was sweet and personal and funny and very much us. During the ceremony the baby was kicking and I put Matt’s hand on my tummy. It was perfect.
I’m very happy. Happier than I’ve ever been. So happy that I can’t believe how great my life is now compared to a year ago this time.
If you’re going through a hard time, things get better. I used to spend almost every night drunk in my bubble bath. I was so miserable.
Now I’m not. I’m exactly where I belong with exactly who I belong with.
4) Look who lost weight this week
I don’t expect this to continue. And that’s ok.
My goals for this week are to:
- Blog more. I’m sorry. I had a big week and between all the baby excitement and getting hitched, I was glued to the Sandy news.
- Eat more balanced. Always a struggle for me.
- Go on more walks with Mr Smith. He’s the best walking partner ever, even when I have the weird pregnancy out of breath thing happening.
Happy weekend!
